"Myself", by Samantha, Great-Granddaughter of Doris May

Sad as I'll ever be.

This wasn't the way it was going to be.

I barely even knew you

and now you're gone.

What am I going to do now?

How am I gonna act?

It hit me like a bag of bricks

and now I'm holding all the weight.

I don't know if I can take it

anymore....

now your gone.

I don't know what to do

How am I suppose to react to you

Scared as I'll ever be

This wasn't the way it was suppose to be

Now I'm holding back the tears

and I'm smiling at something else

and I feel like screaming

and I feel like crying

for you.

How am I suppose to feel

How am I suppose to deal

Don't know what to do

and I barely even knew you

I just feel so sad

Even though I do

I don't seem to

Getting distracted in every way

Just say something happy for me now

Just save me in some way just for now.

I don't wanna know

I don't think I ever will

But if I do

I know that one day

I will

Be able to ask you

MYSELF