Sunday, April 26, 2009
Early Thoughts of Mother's Day
Soon, it will be Mother's Day again and I can't help think of it. Actually, I have been for awhile. No, I am not saddened by such a day. Such thoughts do though come to many, I am sure. I see it as a celebration of a Mother's love. Truly a gift from one's mother to child, which is returned forever after, in some way. At least, that is how it has existed always for me. I am blessed as I always known a loving family.
Since the first Mother's Day celebration after my mother had passed away, I've always gone out and got something for her garden. One year it was garden stepping stones, another year it was a hanging bird house. Of course, flowers to plant in her garden also. There have been different things I've done since her passing that has brought a sense of peace and acceptance in the whole grieving process and of course, the fact that my sister and I have talked much about things now. I do believe it was this blog that helped that to happen. Through our writings.
I've always felt in my heart that one could never truly know the deepest of a mother's love, unless one was a mother. To have loved a child inside one's own heart is what allows to know a mother's love and it's depth. I suppose this very belief is what brings my thoughts on Mother's Day, early this year. Because, Noah was born.
I watch my youngest daughter with her one child and I see the love in her eyes for him. I watch it in her every movement; her every word spoken to him. I had never thought she would have a child and in my own heart I always felt that she would never know the truest love of all; the love that only a mother could feel. I know, without a doubt, she knows that feeling now, for it is clear.
So, this Mother's Day, it will be again, in it's own way, very special this year. I will celebrate with my daughters and grandchildren. And in the day, i will think also of my Mother and I will celebrate the day with her also, in my heart, as always. I do not grieve this day, nor do I dread it. I look foward to it because it is the day which we, those of us who love in our hearts as we do, feel united in a way that only those who have given in such a way, will understand and feel.
Since the first Mother's Day celebration after my mother had passed away, I've always gone out and got something for her garden. One year it was garden stepping stones, another year it was a hanging bird house. Of course, flowers to plant in her garden also. There have been different things I've done since her passing that has brought a sense of peace and acceptance in the whole grieving process and of course, the fact that my sister and I have talked much about things now. I do believe it was this blog that helped that to happen. Through our writings.
I've always felt in my heart that one could never truly know the deepest of a mother's love, unless one was a mother. To have loved a child inside one's own heart is what allows to know a mother's love and it's depth. I suppose this very belief is what brings my thoughts on Mother's Day, early this year. Because, Noah was born.
I watch my youngest daughter with her one child and I see the love in her eyes for him. I watch it in her every movement; her every word spoken to him. I had never thought she would have a child and in my own heart I always felt that she would never know the truest love of all; the love that only a mother could feel. I know, without a doubt, she knows that feeling now, for it is clear.
So, this Mother's Day, it will be again, in it's own way, very special this year. I will celebrate with my daughters and grandchildren. And in the day, i will think also of my Mother and I will celebrate the day with her also, in my heart, as always. I do not grieve this day, nor do I dread it. I look foward to it because it is the day which we, those of us who love in our hearts as we do, feel united in a way that only those who have given in such a way, will understand and feel.
Spring and growing
Spring has arrived. This weekend bringing tempertures into the 80's. Seems like we shut off the furnace heat and turn on the a/c, every year. It just sneaks up on us. I've had the a/c on all weekend but that doesn't surprise anyone who knows me. I just like it cool (ok, cold). So, I've been chilling all weekend.
The lawn is turning once again, its beautiful rich green and the flowers are spouting up all over. I love watching them. Each day, just to walk around and see how far they've come even overnight. The dafodils are in full bloom in "the secret garden" out front. The weekneds is just never enough time to do all that i want to do. So much has been going on.
In a few weeks, Noah, my new little grandson will be living at my house for awhile, with his mommy and daddy, Tammy and Josh. Josh is in college for R.N. and we're very proud of this. We've been busy this weekend getting the room ready for them.
I'm in the makings of plans for my vacation, which I was going to take at the end of May. Some plans changed, as Barb is not going with me on this trip (trip? I might not leave the house!) Though we are planning a movie night, maybe sometime next month with a classic movie I bought her (a joke between us movie!). I'm thinking of having a "girl's movie night" soon. Not sure what I'm doing on my vacation or where I'm going yet, but I do know that I'm taking one and that I won't be going to work during that time! So, a few things are for certain.
Tammy and I are planning on working on our creative memory books after she moves in. We're both in the middle of albums, so thats something we're planning on working on soon. I've been setting up some things for that, this weekend also.
Don cleaned out the hot tub this weekend and dove into it last night and we've been having quite a few bbq's already. The snow seems to have melted and disappeared fast this spring. The ground is dried up and everything is looking really nice.
Its been awhile since writing on here. It sort of has slowed down some but its become a part of all of our lives, this blog site, and I will keep it going and keep it updated with news. This site, which began as a grief and grieving place, has become so much more. It filled me when I needed it, to write and get my thoughts and feelings out but now its become all of our lives and what goes on in life. I know it's become exactly what my Mother would want it to be; about life and living it.
The lawn is turning once again, its beautiful rich green and the flowers are spouting up all over. I love watching them. Each day, just to walk around and see how far they've come even overnight. The dafodils are in full bloom in "the secret garden" out front. The weekneds is just never enough time to do all that i want to do. So much has been going on.
In a few weeks, Noah, my new little grandson will be living at my house for awhile, with his mommy and daddy, Tammy and Josh. Josh is in college for R.N. and we're very proud of this. We've been busy this weekend getting the room ready for them.
I'm in the makings of plans for my vacation, which I was going to take at the end of May. Some plans changed, as Barb is not going with me on this trip (trip? I might not leave the house!) Though we are planning a movie night, maybe sometime next month with a classic movie I bought her (a joke between us movie!). I'm thinking of having a "girl's movie night" soon. Not sure what I'm doing on my vacation or where I'm going yet, but I do know that I'm taking one and that I won't be going to work during that time! So, a few things are for certain.
Tammy and I are planning on working on our creative memory books after she moves in. We're both in the middle of albums, so thats something we're planning on working on soon. I've been setting up some things for that, this weekend also.
Don cleaned out the hot tub this weekend and dove into it last night and we've been having quite a few bbq's already. The snow seems to have melted and disappeared fast this spring. The ground is dried up and everything is looking really nice.
Its been awhile since writing on here. It sort of has slowed down some but its become a part of all of our lives, this blog site, and I will keep it going and keep it updated with news. This site, which began as a grief and grieving place, has become so much more. It filled me when I needed it, to write and get my thoughts and feelings out but now its become all of our lives and what goes on in life. I know it's become exactly what my Mother would want it to be; about life and living it.
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